this is a page where i tell about me

i'm often very depressive and suicidal. i dont have nowhere to dispose my feelings. there might be spelling errors

be cautious


15/12/25
recently ive been struggling a lot with health, my knee's movements are starting to restrict and cause lots of pain whenever i walk or stand, it doesnt matter whether i exercise or not. my stomach's acid is getting stronger and stronger each day, in which it somehow it reaches my mouth and causing injuries in my mouth
i've been losing weight since the middle of the year with diet, it is working, i have reached my ideal weight in a few months, but lately i have lost apetite, i no longer feel a need to eat, it makes me sad, i like eating, but each time i reached for another spoon of rice or something i could already hear the 'you're gaining it all again' comments.
i was clean, my parents divorced a few years ago, my mom is still mad about it. i look like my dad, a lot, which makes her even more mad, my depression has been worsening each months, and her constant mockering has been driving me mad. she made me relapse, i blame her, i love her but i will always blame, she's been having conversations with my sisters, she's making my 'own' self become 'his' reflexion, she no longer sees me as her daughter,im only him. not my fault tho.. she's the one who decided to marry and she always confidently admits she stopped her birthcontrol to have 'more fun'! sorry but you're not a girlpower, you're just ignorant.
i can't leave my bed or computer anymore, i dont want to see anyone anytime soon, not even my boyfriend, i cant gather up courage to make something useful, ive been drawing, but only that.

i didthis artwork recently,im very proud of it.
my laptop i want to show them off